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[Apr. 19th, 2009|05:00 pm] |
Okay so this is the last damn time I'm going to switch, arg, I swear.
My username is now ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) guuuu!!! Soooo go there, watch me, whatever. I'll be adding back as they come along! |
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[Apr. 19th, 2009|11:35 am] |
OMGGGG My new WRAETHTHU books just came in the mail~ So excited to finish this series *_*
BUT. I have to complete my art history final before I even touch them. Scout's honor.
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[Apr. 17th, 2009|06:50 pm] |
So I had an interview today with Borders annnnd I think it went really well; I hope that I got the job, but I don't want to depend on my fantasy-type feelings. If I get it, then I'll celebrate.
School's almost done, and I'm a bit nervous about my grades, but I have a good feeling that they'll be better than last semester, by far! My art's been okay lately, but I want to definitely do some artist trading cards and beef up my deviantart gallery annnnd...yatta yatta yatta.
EDIT Looool, Tony and Sarah just came over and we played Wii and watched some Star Wars. I love random visits! |
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[Apr. 12th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
I definitely need a place to write a to-do list, so here it is. This can go ignored by all but me I3
Monday - Job search continues, stop at park district to give a little heads up. Also, call dad about weird insurance bill that came in?
Tuesday - Nothing yet
Wednesday - Talk to Alex in financial aid about the packets and what to do about claiming independent.
Thursday - Nothing yet.
Friday - KEEP IN TOUCH DAY. From now on, this is the day to call my mom and dad and catch up and show them I care. I don't do it enough.
Weekend - Mulch with godparents, whee~
Also, I really fucking want the new ToraDora PSP pack....like, ALOT. But then again, I don't want a PSP so whatever. I'll just wait for someone to scan the cool box on it.
Yeah. No other news; got a crush on a girl but she's taking a long time to respond. We'll see. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2009|01:16 pm] |
Uhh lacking journal is lacking.
What is there to say? School's winding down, I'm still in the dire midst of a job search...not much to go on with family...all that's been keeping me preoccupied lately is reading. It sort of feels like an obsession, continuing to read this series, and when I can't do just that, it drives me to near-insanity. I never though I'd get so hung up over a book! Maybe, just maybe, I need a life.
I feel the extreme urge to hang out with my friends, and that could mean in any context- an at-home party, going out to a movie, whatever. Then again, when I do that sometimes I get this feeling similar to jealousy, maybe more like envy, that they're with someone and I'm not. I never liked being single, not completely. It just seems like no one matches me. Am I doomed to live my life alone? I don't think so.
In the meantime, I bought a new sketchbook, something to give me a fresh start. I don't think I'm going to worry about contests and assignments in it; it'll be more personal, more about my own development as an artist. What am I meant to do with it...what am I trying to do with my art? Is it really about changing the world, or is it about changing me?
It's too complicated to go into! : ) I hope everyone else is fairing well.
EDIT I'll be doing a friends cut later. Mostly people I don't talk to that often. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2009|04:47 pm] |
Uhhh ideas for ACen 2010, when I hopefully actually have money to make awesome costumes again:
Tsukikami from D.Gray-Man. I'm looking for someone shorter than me to be Timothy. Any takers? : )
Soul from SOUL EATER, an original design of mine.
Yup, just wanted to get that out. |
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[Mar. 25th, 2009|06:25 pm] |
OKAY IT'S OFFICIAL, I'VE DECIDED.
Goodbye to LJ, at least for now. I might update now and then with posts on my new blog, buuuuut probably not. I'll stick check my f-list, though.
ANYWAYS. HERE'S MY NEW BLOG, SO GO LOVE IT AND COMMENT AND STUFF! ♥
Unvogue@Wordpress
I've already reviewed this book I read recently and posted some art and.... YAY. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2009|09:28 am] |
Maaaan I don't know where to blog anymore.
I'm doomed to roam the internet forever and post at every fucking site I come upon for some ungodly reason. But all is good. Maybe. So I actually got to painting yesterday, like, something just for me, not homework. It's not done yet, but I'm really going to push myself into finishing it today. So I can hang it up, possibly.
On Friday at school, there was this presentation....well, two actually, that talked about the true essence of art. At least, it was the kind of thought process I've always believed in. That art is about love, about expression, and fuck the money and fame. For a while I was getting so sucked in to my school's pounding-of-the-brains about 'omg be successful and make a shitload of money and give the school a good name' that it's like...I totally lost sight of what I wanted to do. Now that I've regained that, I need to force some motivation into myself. Instead of being like 'well, I'll just paint that tomorrow or sometime later in the week'. No. I'm going to paint right fucking now. There isn't any reason to wait.
All that jazz. But yeah, I went to Blick yesterday and woops, spent alot more than I thought I was going to, but I'm now absolutely SET to last through the summer with commissions and shit for cons and whatever. Speaking of cons, I'm actually getting pretty excited to cosplay SOUL EATER. Even if Soul's costume is easy as fuck, I just love his character to pieces.
Uh...anyways. I don't know what the point of this post was; maybe just to motivate me to work on weekends instead of just sit around.
....bye. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2009|11:29 am] |
Becuase I need to vent:
OH GOD, I HATE MY PERIOD. It gives me terrible mood swings and now blazing hot flashes and just...YUCK. I started out having a nice, normal morning and now it's all fucked up and for stupid little reasons. I had to start a painting over in watercolor, so now I'm all agitated with my teacher, but I mean, it's not his fault so it's like I can't be mad. So now I'm mad at myself because I keep trying to impress my teachers and it keeps failing and I really need to stop trying that and just make myself happy, but fuck it, I'm in such a bad mood right now and fkjfdkfjas;fjdsj.
dfjksd.
Yeah, that's all. |
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[Mar. 18th, 2009|12:00 pm] |
Auuugh, I always have very useless things to update with! Oh well.
I feel like I want a new sketchbook. Or perhaps to rip out a ton of shit from my current one. Not that I don't like what I've got in there, but....it always bothers me, looking at someone else's sketchbook and then see mine and be like 'I'm inferior, arg' and then want to change it and.....wah.
Today I had my long break and shit, I have nothing to do except sit here and wah about nothing. I probably have Art History after this, which I'm actually finding to be an interesting class. Art & Activism, on the other hand, not so much. In fact I'm finding that really boring and am considering dropping it. So much work, so many interuptions from my other classes, only for this one to suck and for me to learn....god, NOTHING. Watercolor is as it is. I'm still learning things from it, so it keeps me satisfied. Also, the need to impress my teacher? Kind of keeps me working at it. Same thing with Illustration, though I believe I've learned my fill from that. Now it's just having my teacher critique outside work of mine to boost me a bit.
Um...yeah. See, this is all useless stuff. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2009|07:34 am] |
Wow I was.....really angry last night.
But I'm not sorry for saying any of it. And meaning it.
Unfortunately, I just don't think it's in me to allow people like that to have their opinions, not around me. Try as I might, I just get pissed and go all logical-thoughts on their ass about how wrong they are. Which, um, they are. : D
Anyways, I'm visiting my aunt and my grandma right now but...hopefully within the next few days, I'll be able to like, post something else. I wanted to do one entry a day on DeviantArt, but I'm away from scanners and whatnot. So....yeah. Forgot what I was even beginning to say.
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[Mar. 14th, 2009|05:14 pm] |
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I wish some people would get a clue.
I wish some people would realize that we, the gay community, are humans too.
I wish some people would realize how much they're hurting us, how much they're ruining our lives, over NOTHING.
I wish some people would stop shoving the fucking church down our throats, because I'm going to unfortunately quote Chris Crocker in saying 'this country is NOT a fucking church'.
I wish for gay rights. I want to marry the woman I love someday. Fuck, I may even want children someday with her. I may want that.
I may just want that. Of course, it's my life, so let's just let someone else fucking control it, and control who I love and who I marry. Stupid, arrogant, assanine fucking homophobes: we're here to stay. And we will have our fucking rights.
Suck on that cock, you maggots. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2009|06:25 pm] |
DOODLING, OF COURSE. SPEAKING OF WHICH, I'M FINALLY UPDATING MY DEVIANTART ACCOUNT AGAIN. So go and support me and looooove....stuff? Hopefully?
HERE'S THE NEWEST PIECE DUDES: A Curious Har |
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[Mar. 1st, 2009|08:31 pm] |
I've been wayyyy neglectful of my livejournal lately. Damn, but I'm too indecisive to know where exactly I want to post updates and such.
Maybe I'll just give in and do it here. WE'LL SEE.
It's all about art and fashion and school and crap. Maybe I should stop caring so much about something as trivial as blogging? XD |
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[Feb. 24th, 2009|06:21 pm] |
Is it wrong of me to want some Gucci sunglasses?
By the way, THIS is my blog. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2009|04:18 pm] |
WHAT A SPECTACULAR FRIDAY THE 13TH. LIKE, REALLY.
DETAILS SOME OTHER TIME. MAYBE. PROBABLY NOT. ♥ |
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[Feb. 12th, 2009|06:07 am] |
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I think something's been wrong with me lately, or at least it really surfaced last night. School's been going well; I'm getting pretty good grades, and am enjoying a good portion of my assignments. Family life is fine. I'm in touch with everyone and visiting as often as possible. Things are not really awkward like they once were. I finally decided that no matter what style I have, even if it does have anime influences, if that's what makes me happy, I don't think I need to change it. I've done so much research and I've tried to change so much about it, it's becoming a headache to try and draw anything.
With all of that being said, I still don't understand last night. I got home, and I felt fine. Ate dinner, took a shower, and suddenly....I wanted to go to bed? I went to bed last night at 8PM. It's an ungodly hour for me, way too early. But I somehow felt tired enough to really do it. Why is that? Is it maybe because I'm exercising a little more now? Am I tired with something? I tried to think about it last night for a while, picking my mind to see if anything at all was bothering me, or hindering me from being myself but....I guess I've been myself lately, just really tired. Kind of lonely too, with Valentine's day coming up. But that isn't like, controlling my life or anything, it's just there in the back of my mind.
I really don't know what's going on with me. Upon inspection it doesn't SEEM like anything is wrong with me, but I feel like something is. Like, there's something I'm depressed about or....something I'm not doing right, whatever. There's just something. Ugh, I'm going to be forever bothered by this until I just stop worrying over shit.
Anyways. Still watching SOUL EATER, still doodling everyday. Trying to start a site that will be my portfolio...Yeah. |
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[Jan. 28th, 2009|06:00 am] |
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Ughhhh. I don't like waking up to the cold! My eyes would barely open this morning. They're being all...fuzzy and crap.
And well, I do but don't feel like going to Watercolor. I'm sure I'm just saying that right now, because usually once I get there and start working, I'm having a ton of fun. It's probably because I'm tired and cold and wah. Last night was one crazy, fucked up dream after another, but nothing noteable, I guess.
I did come to the realization though, that I need to get out more. Like, alot more. I'm so tired of just sitting around the house, even though it's nice and warm here, arg... I feel the desperate need to go to a concert again, or go ice skating with my buddies or something. I haven't really hung out with all of them in a while. Makes me sad : (
Though, I am trying to get alot of stuff done. Like, once I complete this AIS crapola, I might be able to transfer some credits over. WHICH WOULD BE FUCKING AMAZING, SO I DON'T HAVE TO BE SO WORRIED ABOUT THAT. And then I'm entering the Society of Illustrators contest and the Juried show at school (with what, I don't know, for this one), and the Art of Words essay contest. I'm pretty stoked to be finding the motivation to participate in all this, but still. I WANT TO GO OUT.
Um...yeah, so that's alot of complaining. Also, I'm beginning to feel irritated over having so many sites to update. Maybe I'll just stick with LiveJournal...or something. Whatever. I should try to take more pictures and update with that.
OKAY, SCHOOL TIME, CIAO. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2009|09:29 am] |
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I love all robots, geez....Some top favorites are WALL-E, the Iron Giant, and Gir. Again, I love all of them, though.
Ummm, yeah. Not too much going on lately. School, school, and art. But mostly school. Did I mention I had alot of school stuff?
Again, my life isn't boring, but I don't think there's enough to talk about. My classes are fun, but that's because I'm enjoying the work that I do. Like, I haven't gone out with my friends or anything. It's just been alot of schoolwork and doodling and practicing. I guess that's something to talk about, that I have some things I need to work on, such as my cosplays. I don't really have money to buy fabric though, so I can't do that yet.
Wah. |
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